color blind . waiting for the path-finder

color blind . waiting for the path-finder

7.40pm coded 260111

This was taken last year during a trip to Penang. I love taking photos when i'm inside of the car and of coz when i'm not driving. This sight captures my color blind lens when I was on the way up a little route to a temple and it reminds me of the days when i'm still in waiting for the path-finder... the bus driver. When I was in my primary school, I always take the bus to school until the last year of my high school days. I've never felt bored about the waiting duration coz that is the only period that I can spend time with myself and my dream. I always day dream during the waiting and even sing to myself. Nowadays its a different thing as there is MP3 and people sings to me and sometimes I even sing along. If there's a book, I will be reading. If there's a blank book, I will be doodling. If there's a camera, I will be snapping photos. If there's nothing, I will be observing. If there's nothing to observe and it's dark, I will be... shaking... coz this mean I'm alone in the dark and it's scary. Sometimes I wish I have telepathic skills to enable me in reading other people's mind. I can then check out what kind of thing that each of the "path-finder-wait-er" are thinking.

doodles . questions

questions

1.00am coded 220111, it's Saturday morning and no work for tomorrow! But it's weird to me as I'm feeling kind of melancholic in this hour. I think the blue day of the month must have reach. The day which I get very upset all of a sudden and need to shed a few tears to get comfortable. I guess my life is reaching another point where I need to do a lot of decision making, trusting and believing, applying and deleting, remembering and forgetting, pretending and lying, eating and drinking, purchasing and selling, sleeping and dreaming, loving and hating, pushing and pulling, listening and muting, accepting and avoiding, creating and destroying, trying and handling, -ing and -ing, -ing and -ing, and the -ing goes on… if it is really that easy, there will be no questions or curiosities in life… and so life goes on with your brain working out on more solutions and answers for all the questions your heart and mind are asking. I guess I’m still searching for confidence and courage in order to go on with my plans and projects to walk on this adventurous route of life. Wish me luck and hope my success may shine on you with a special memory of the timid me.  

doodles . what's in a name?

what's in a name?

1.00am coded 200111, it's thursday morning and it's a public holiday! Happy Thaipusam to those who are celebrating. It's been a week and a half since last week... and i've been embedding this question into some potential future designers... what's in a name? Sounds familiar with this quote? It's familiar if you are a fan of William Shakespeares's Romeo and Juliet. Giving a name sounds easy but what the name rings to the mind is something hard to do. People tends to tease ones name or trying to be creative by twisting and bending the name into another form of calling. But still you are who you are. That's what so amazing and mysterious a name conveys. You might felt light-hearted when you heard a name. You might have a sinking feeling when you heard a name. You can have all kinds of feeling even like anger, hatred, envious or even sympathy. It work in both ways if you applies the right or thoughtful values into a name. It work in both ways for male or female if you applies the right or thoughtful qualities into a relationship. A name is everything. It's with you from or by the time you were born. If that is that then it shall stay there. It doesn't always need to be change. I got a nice and elegant name from my father on the day i was born. Priscilla was the name and it was given upon the marriage of Elvis Presley and Priscilla Presley. But then when i reach 13, a moniker was given by my childhood friends and it was Rabbit and after a decade and more, the names are still with me. Priscilla tattooed on my right leg and Rabbit, hanging around and surrounding me day by day. I guess from my name, the first impression of a person on me might be attitude or my rabbit teeth. Imagining a person by not looking but only hearing his or her name is somehow, an interesting experience. You will either feels like "See! Just like what i was thinking!" or you might just go like "Gosh! What was i thinking?".. what a name!

doodles . multiply

multiply

4.55pm coded 160111, it’s Sunday and I’m half dead. 4.5% of year 2011 had gone behind, left only 95.5% of the year to go and I’m pronouncing dead soon. The word “certified” will haunt me in no less than “more-loaded task” of seconds and I won’t have the time to say good bye then.  I’m not complaining, I’m not blaming nor accusing, I’m just asking for some help or some extra time on my task, job, dream, sleep, play, meal, rabbit-type of etc.  I love my jobs… it is job with s… I love about the invention, research, team-work, communication, debate, brain-storm of ideas or opinions, circle of communities involve and not to forget, the networking. To be on top of the list doesn’t mean easy work load, high pay-cheque. You need to work hard in order to climb up the stairs but reaching the success point is harder than you can imagine. When I was still a few years younger back then, I always felt that a company is so unfair. Imagine the lower –level-status employees working like hell on their task, with a minimum of pay-cheque which I don’t have to mention coz it depends on your job scope, comparing to the higher-level-status employees, sitting there, giving you instructions on this and that, they get higher pay-cheque… and that sounds soooo unfair but, looking at the right spot, they deserve the pay coz they needed the money to pay for their future medical fees… especially for their brain. Sometimes you need payment for some extra brain-juice that you wish to infuse into your poor little juiceless brain. There’s no free-lunch in this world. If you want that pay, you work hard. If you wish for a serenity-base job, be prepared for the worse when your financial storm comes crashing down. You never know what’s next. Here’s a fiction of my imagination. Multiply myself and I will have extra help and extra time for my task, job, dream, sleep, play, meal, rabbit-type of etc. Multiply me please!

doodles . drink?

drink?

Drinking is a must, drinking can be a habit but it depends on what you drink. When someone mention a must on drink, it can be something important which you need like water or juices but when someone mention the word 'habit' after drinking, it can be most probably pointing to something like liquor or any drinks which can makes you walk like a crab after. Today a friend mention the word 'yam-cha' in an sms and the feeling was quite different comparing to normal days coz the word sound so serious. Today, i add another word into my dictionary, 'yam-cha'. For normal outings it means go for a drink or meeting up in some place which everyone get a chance to talk and laugh or even cry out loud. But today, it's a different meaning. When i received the sms containing the word 'yam-cha', it means goodbye to me. It's like keep in touch instead of bon-voyage. It's like Sayonara instead of Matta-Ne. As long as the 'yam-cha' section is on, I guess it is still the best way to reconcile a loose friendship and tighten it with a knot even if they don't stay at the same place, work at the same place or even hang out at the same place anymore. Let's go 'yam-cha'! What do you say?

doodles . muma-cafe

muma cafe

I went to De Garden at Ipoh Garden East today. Saw a lots of empty shops ready for rent. Makes me think of my longing dream, opening a cafe. I'm always in love of making small meals for busy people and those who loves to spend their time in a cafe which is warm at heart and unique in a way. Though small in space, it still expresses something friendly and have the sense of belonging. This little wooden horse was doodled a long time ago. Can't keep track of the time but i do remember that it was created together with one of my stories that I used to draw. It belongs to the aunt of the story's protagonist and she works there everyday after school. At the main entrance of the mini cafe, stood there, a wooden-carved horse beside the menu stand. What so special about the wooden horse is that its tail was replaced with a windup key giving it a form of life. And so i named the cafe Muma Cafe, means wooden horse in chinese.

doodles . your voice in my heart

your voice in my heart

Today's doodle is "your voice in my heart". A doodle which was doodled more than a year ago. It's quite straightforward as you can see there are lots of music notes and voice or sound-related materials. Standing along is a robot with a piece of letter sealed with a heart. To me, music is one of the most important and amazing things in life. The spell that it can put on you, it is speechless. It can makes you smile, laugh, cheer, be confident and even makes you cry. Music is like a memory booster or you might call it a memory recorder too. Just like a photo, it can gives you some flash back of your life or some routes that you've gone through. The memories were sometimes so long ago, it felt like yesterday or just a few steps away. That is how it makes me feel. Music is my life and i hope that some part of your heart keeps a few songs which do rewind some scene about me and blink in front of you when it plays. A big toast for the composers and song-writers... for making everyone's memory afloat in the songs. 

doodles . once me

What is doodle? In dictionary, it means scribble drawings or designs: to draw something aimlessly or absent-mindedly, but to me, in my dictionary, it means scribbling what's on my mind, onto a piece of paper and what i wish to bring out... things that i love, hate, concern, admire, dreaming of, wish for, hope to and even regret. Doodling is one of my favorite pasttime.

The first doodle that im showing here is this. The name is "once me". Each of my doodles have a background story.

once me

About "once me"
I was once a girl with very very long black hair. I love t-shirts and converse shoes as i still do now. The only thing which is totally different now is my hair. I cut it short a few years ago before that new year and it was the turning point of my life from that moment. Everything changes from time to time but to me, i'm still myself but sometimes, some things are meant to be changed and we just need to go along or stay regret.

millennium turns eleven . i turns thirty-six minus seven

10.11pm, coded 020111, happy new year! It’s the second day of the whole new and only twenty-eleven. It seems there have been lots of events passed by in just 2 weeks time before millennium turns eleven. Holidays are always insufficient and vacations are always a thirst, like blood to vampire. And work is like kryptonite to superman. Tomorrow is my first day back to work and this means that a whole new 363 days are waiting in list. Though it sounds busy but I believe that time is under our own control, so I wish that I can fulfill the following. Take it as a resolution list but it means more than that to me. Here it goes.

Start on yoga instead of hyper-dancing workout

Stop and have a cup of tea when I need to even though I’m busy as can be.

Travel more

Hang out with my buddies more often

Eat healthy

Keep up with my collection on cans and containers

Date William more or ask him to date me more

Make my blog more interesting and full house

Shower puffy with more love

Add up my collections of tea-brand-labels with string or non-string attached

Add more names into my circle of friends

Keep on with my productions of handcrafting items

Snap more photos

Drink more water

Get my shoes dirtier

Continue with my doodling

Most importantly, spend more time with my family.

I think that's not enough. There are lots more thing that I wish I can do or fulfill. Attend Mayday's concert whenever there is one in Malaysia. Grab more albums from Mayday, Paramore, Blue Foundation, Zee Avi, soundtracks, etc. Embed more concept into my jobs when needed. Finish my books. Get young and be happy! Twenty-eleven, here i come!